May 12 2012
Lyle isn’t real…
At Asher's birthday party. Asher is in Annada's preschool class.
I broke Annada’s heart tonight. We have been having an on going debate on if crocodiles are nice or mean. Tonight we were guessing animals and Annada gave me the hint, “I am going to find one and bring it home for a pet.”
I guessed a butterfly and she said, “No, Mommy, a crocodile!”
Living in Florida I was a little concerned she really would find one so I told her we will never have a pet crocodile and if she found one to walk away… not realizing I would crush her dreams.
She literally curled up in the fetal position and cried big silent tears. I didn’t know what to do so I just stroked her hair while she grieved. After a few minutes she said quietly, “kisses please.” So I gave her a bunch of kisses and she just laid in bed until it was time for me to leave. – So sad! –